Time Flies

Trying to be part of everything, running away from certain moments just to go get what i want ended me telling you time flies, this moment i feel i have been envied upon and also hurt so many people by just not giving them the time they needed with me. This regret is the worst of em all, i hardly see myself reached anywhere by missing those moments. I have tried sometimes not to, but still ignored and went on chasing after something. I have traveled thousands of miles away right now, family, the most support i would have i left them behind to just win my fame. They held me up so many times, i've been through BAD moments and they never put me down, they always advised and encouraged me to do good and be good. It sounds so common, yet for me at this moment that is the most important one i am in search on. Watching inspirational videos, motivational talks, life without, life after, suspense, and reading biographies. God dammit this aint the situation i figured myself in. You would always want that ONE SOUL, one shade over to tell you, I believe in you, You can do it, made me feel i have already done it. Here i mention about my mother, she made me a man i am today, exert herself all day and night for my happiness, made sure i was healthy and wealthy every time, she .... words are not enough. I miss you, I just want to come back to you as soon as possible and live all the days ahead with you, i don't want to see myself hanging around for a believer. You are and you will be the only true believer i will have. Live your moments completely, don't be held back or be rigid on yourself, spare all the time for people who want you in their happiness and sadness make them feel loved. You dont want to see yourself in that position waiting for someone. I'm not carrying a bleeding heart rather I choose to wear my heart upon my sleeve. Peace 

Is Self-righteousness Right? Do I have to accept it ?

The closeness, fondness, respect, attitude, smile, all this seems to just fade when you don't strike the right chord in your action of life when its required. Taking the most simple example - A relationship, You continue to let it stay it stays happily and not take it in thoughts and strangle it to death?
I,
Regret Regret Regret !! Am i doing it right? I was not asked to be in this obnoxious situation, I indeed brought myself here and swear to that god, its not comfortable to be here. There is no need for one to impose your self qualities/principles on the other just coz you are right and perfect (if you feel so). Let he live by his standards and see where he ends up on his values, you never know he MIGHT be right in his way and he being unique from you. If you were right, he indeed did learn his lesson ! Be this kinda teacher. From this post, I tell clearly please don't be bossed over by anyone in this universe. You are in control of your own emotions and personality, You are alone !! Choose what is right for you...

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My point of view here is being unhappy, you have wasted a moment in life. I need a new place to live? Am i wrong trying to save myself?  I am just confused.. I leave it to you readers is that being self-righteous is right on one's part if so it leaves the other blank and unhappy?
 

ART Experience !

“Art is not what you see, but what you make others see.”
                                                         ~ Edgar Degas.

Last evening had been to an Art Exhibition, Was my first time experience in there. Let me tell you, what I felt.. The paintings hung over the wall, people murmuring, curators briefing, artists explain their art and what was I doing? Looking at em and wondering.. Every individual painting was vivid, had a deep meaning, gave a deep thought over it as to what the artist would have thought when he got himself with colors and the canvas.. Did he really try to tell what is seen? Why cant it be like this? Does it mean the same as what i have in mind? Among all these were ones that caught me, A painting had this old detached house, storm filled environment and people returned home... !! Another art that depicted the human senses shown in a cycle.. The best one was the art which showed a comparison between a fetus in womb and a fish !! Too many small drawings within and made me think more deep. This experience was amazing, Thank you, for this opportunity for me to realize the meaning of art. I concluded saying.. 

"Art is what you imagine"

And I even heard this statement among the crowd "Only like 40% of the artists really mean the art they do, rest just do the art work for the sake of completion & carry a degree from an art school".

So true !! Some paintings there made totally no sense at all. Even the artist wouldn't have given a thought over it.

Cheers

-Mj

A new start!

Started off bad, you made me wait for an hour. Still i kept my cool and waited. Everything around went past and I kept searching among the crowd for you, till i got a text from you that you already reached i lost it.. Reading the text, led to that sudden rush of emotions kept me high on toes, climbed the three storied building and finally gave a glance at your presence, you waiting to say hello, I ACTED not to notice and ended up entering the room and greeted the other friend. Turned back to see you were not there, had to rush to you and made the best greet, though you deserved more. Time passed, paper cups had holes, blood thinned and talks went on and on. There should be a villain(bad guy) in every scene to make it complete and meaningful, There was one. Don't wanna waste time telling about that loser, I've dirtied my mouth enough and made it clear to the you. When wonderful moments come by, Its goes with the saying, we have no words to express. Thereafter till this moment, everything has been wonderful and inexpressible. You are amazing, ..... what do i thank you for? You have made changes? Made me realize the value? charm? Smartness? Care? Fight? I am living it... I WILL wait for more :)
The end. J-Walking.. Oh no.. JAYWalking, you end up with a raindrop hit your eye in your search of stars... DAY OF MY LIFE.
I want to say this to you, 

"May the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face and the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars"


-Life 

Graduation !

Day I completed my Undergrad, Listening to music and never focused on the lyrics, Just the tunes, I came up with this...

It is virtually impossible to compete in today's global economy without a college degree.
 
-Bobby Scott



Now as an Engineer, To focus more in life I set my goals to a higher limit. Engineering was one of it, Achieved ! Ready to face the world of politics, corruption, investments, people, brains nested with em and challenges. (all as to in-terms corporate world). Gosh sounds like so much and I am not ready yet, for whatever reason i had this feeling that I am gonna go through this and have no clue why i had this feeling, its all about Wrestling and to measure the amount of success, how high i go or how much money i make. How do i know that its worth living my life for, Do i need anyone, whom do i need, where do i need?   Else I do it alone? (just to say i already have one, but still want to do it on my own)
 
This is the solution i came up FOR NOW, for an individual to have  a perfect understanding about their living, Goes like this :) Moments Flyby, people come by, emotions pass by, feelings some stay, some change, some makes you strong or tear apart, at the end no one make u happy than yourself, born in this world with many people around you who are not promised to come along all the way till your last.. So death happens unknowingly ( if you know your death is coming up, stop thinking about and live your life). Do the work, until it satisfies you, Once you are satisfied, There is no need to satisfy nother ! Self realization and self confidence can drive an individual to any heights and make his living worthwhile !

Dated : 15-06-2013

Life better than your Dream

"You know you're in love
when you can't fall asleep
because reality is finally better than your dreams"
- Dr.Suess

An exquisite meaning in the quote !
You can define it in many possible ways,

--> Hard work by a person, lets him live the REALITY more and DREAM less.

--> Fallen in love with someone, want you to stay awake all night and feel the presence around your loved one.

--> A business man builds his business to high stakes to be a millionaire in REALITY than in DREAMS

--> A newborn baby fights back its sleep to see the colors in life and not DREAM.

'Not all dreamers have lost their dreams,
Likewise not all dreams are with the dreamers'

"Dream the vision you want to live,
not the vision you wanted to live"
... Manjhunath

DEATH = Enemy !!

A mysterious Feeling of what just happened, why is everything around blank and sad, why is everyone sharing memories, why tears are shed, CONFUSED !! Yes, I was...
Friend always stays by you. Help, fun, Sadness, hug, support, smile or Frown.. WHERE ARE YOU NOW.??
A bike accident which was brutal and where 4 ribs crush, 2 on either side, both collar bones are cracked, Blood Clots in head...... WHAT !!!
Not one day, one week, one fortnight, even a month !! He battled to survive and come "BACK TO US" for "FORTY FIVE" days... Blood being transfused every now and then, needles pierced every vien, fluids was the only source of energy,, Everything around him would have been white and smelled medicinal..He waited to see the real sun and real shade...
Doctors Declared he was in coma for weeks..
He hardly gave a small gesture to the two loving souls (parents) by him day n night !! READY TO SACRIFICE !!
"HELL WITH US AND THE MEMORIES WE HAD" :'(
In between once he was declared DEAD.... {heart seizure} SILENCE !!
V - Fib... !! After 3 minutes he got back his heart beating and resonating to say " I WANNA LIVE "
Day after day.... Doctors operated ....
Operations after operation ... Parents hoped a lot....
Last two days of his charm..
Day 1...
Shifted from ICU to normal ward to say he is out of danger..
He smiles , talks with difficulty ... Parents had ever had better happiness than that moments..
Day 2...
Day was good , eve was good...
9:00 PM - Doctor said he had to remove some water content of the lung cavity. Through Tubes...
An "INEXPERIENCED" Doctor companies and says I'll take it from here.. He does the tubular method through the food pipe..
After few seconds.. Dad by side shouts "his pulse rate is dropping"
Doctor replied "Its an error in system"
Till the final moment He struggles to breath... Again !! CARDIAC ARREST.. !! Doctors rush and try all. Finally said "HE IS DEAD"

I call this a CLINICAL DEATH .. Blame the DOCTOR..
Reports Read " INFECTIOUS BODY COULDN'T BE TREATED " :O
What was the necessary for an inexperienced doctor to try his luck !!

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My friend ..
Was not destined to die at the age of 18 !!!
DEATH IS.... NO MORE !! I HAD ENOUGH...
We all miss you and your company.. !!
If there exist something as afterlife
Live your best , Be happy !!
May your soul Rest In PEACE !!

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"GOD ALWAYS WANT GOOD PEOPLE WITH HIM"